Monday, November 23, 2009


Woo hoo! Finally my music is on itunes. Only took me two months!!!

The process is a lengthy one and can take up to six weeks, but in my case, it had been two months and nothing! So I emailed their support staff again and found out the problem had been a glitch on their end... so they fixed that and rushed my order through and now the songs are all there!
All ready to be purchased easily.
The question is, is anyone going to be interested in buying them? LOL

Oh well, it's a thrill for me to just have it there and to have achieved this much at least.

So if you're reading this you can preview or purchase the CD or individual songs from this link.

If you do take a listen, I'd appreciate some feedback!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

You don't trust me

Miss Fifteen and I were having a bit of a conversation last night. During the course of this conversation, which I might add, included a few tears, I heard the words "you don't trust me - You're too over protective - they're not like that - I'm not like that - I'm smarter than that - that won't happen to me"

It took me back to my own teenage years because I know I uttered those words on many occasion.

It's not easy being a parent. Where is that line between being too strict and being too loose? And where are the instructions to tell you when that line changes? It's got to be different at every age!

So I gave Miss Fifteen the same words my mother told me... "Trust has to be earned, it's not a given right - I put restrictions because I care - when you're an adult with your own children, you'll understand"
but I know those words will be met with the same attitude that I gave when my mother spoke them to me.

I guess I haven't turned out too damaged so I have to hope that miss fifteen will also not hate me so much in a few years time...

Sure is tough being a parent to teenagers!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

I hate shopping for clothes

This lunch time I was reminded how much I hate shopping for clothes!

I've needed new clothes for some time as I slowly seem to be outgrowing the ones I have... So, as depressing as that is, I faced the fact and went out this lunch time to get something new. A new skirt perhaps...I'm steering clear of pants or anything that comes above the knee. It's time to be realistic...

30 minutes isn't a great deal of time to look, granted, but I still think I should have been able to see something passable...

It seems to me the shops are geared towards the 16 or 60 year olds.
Where is all the in-between stuff???
You either have to be young and wanting to wear short tight clothes, or old with a passion for large flowery patterns.
It was quite depressing

I was actually wearing the skirt that I was trying to find a replica of, after all, there is only so many times you can wear the same skirt into an office - and one of the girls in a clothing store I went into asked me if I'd bought this skirt from her store. I got excited thinking they may have something for me! Alas no - the store didn't even have anything remotely resembling my skirt so that was a bit of a letdown.

In another store, the sales assistant was just beside herself trying to help me but there was nothing there. "Hold on" she would say, and lead me to something else that was completely not what I was after. I admired her dedication but dedication doesn't always get results. Especially if you're on a time limit!

So no, I have no idea what I'm going to wear tomorrow unless I happen to lose 10 kgs overnight, and serves me right for letting my wardrobe situation get as bad as it has.
I just hate shopping for clothes so much! I
know, so unwomanly of me!
Why is it that the perfect outfit is ALWAYS found when you're not looking for it!!

Monday, November 2, 2009


I haven't wanted to write about this because I'm scared of jinxing myself!

I've been running for a couple of months now, slowly building the amount of km's I do per week.

Right now I'm up to 20 or 25kms a week (depending on how many days I'm working)
I've been running 5kms at a time.

I'm thinking of increasing that to 6. I have two more runs to go this week before I'm back at work... If I changed it to 6ms, that would make 27kms for the week!

I still can't believe I'm doing it!

I really can't.

In fact, that's what motivates me...

Every morning when I get dressed for running, I'm filled with this dread that I'm not going to be able to do it.
It's what drives me I guess... I want to prove myself wrong.

And then when I'm on there and doing it, I'm fighting a mental battle. The trick to being able to complete it strongly and successfully is to just take my mind off of it!
Watching a good movie helps.

I've been watching movies with subtitles because when I read from the TV screen, I'm having to use different mental powers so it distracts me from what I'm actually doing. Strange as it sounds, it works...

And what a feeling when I'm done!!! I did it! I always can't believe that I did it....

So should I go for 6kms tomorrow or should I just stay on 5kms? I'm worried I'm going to push myself too soon!

And have I just ruined it all now by writing about it?

I just love that I can do it.

20 hours till my next run!